How Did I Get Here?

How did I get here? Such a broad and somewhat gross question as it forces you to look back on all of the best and worst moments of your existence. How wonderful it was to be in high school, a place where people were all forced into the same building and the same friendships. How unnerving is it to realize that about 2% of those friendships last as the real world swallows you whole. How beautiful are the moments where you realize you enjoy being alone with yourself and how devastating are the times where you barely recognize yourself staring back at you through a mirror of insecurity and a desire to please everyone but yourself. The only thing left to do, I decided, is to purchase a video game console and get lost in a fictional world and never socialize with anyone again. Okay no, but it’s tempting. Seriously though, how did I get here? I am smack dab in the middle of a worldwide pandemic with no money, no friends and a very shakey idea of who I am. It’s about time I figure it out.